So I tried to post some pictures but for some reason it is not working right now. Picture to come but they did not have anything to do with the post anyway!!!
Okay to all you mothers both stay at home and not! So kensi is the biggest rollercoster is this just an 18 month thing or is this going to last forever? or am I the only one who feels this way? There are days (well maybe I should go with moments) there are moments that Kensi is my best friend and I honestly am okay hanging out with her and only her. then those moments seem to flip into this monster. where she freaks out if she does not get here way throws these temper tantrums and makes me honesly feel like even if I wanted I could not have another kid. Mentally and physically too much to handle.
Then there are these moments where I'm the last person in the world that she wants and will not let me hold her if her life depended on it, then like on sunday took her to nursery which she has been struggling with in the new ward, got her occupied and snuck out. then two mothers could not get her to calm down so once they found me she immediatly stopped for the occational gasp of breath!!!
Speaking of nursery any tricks??? Mark and I have to switch so be able to have some sanity and go to parts of church. There is a possibility that one of us will be put in the nursey they only have one lady for 9 kids CRAZY but last week they had help from another couple and mark/me
Last but not least every once in a while she will still wake up in the middle of the night I don't know to bad dreams or whether she has marks bad guts and her stomach hurts but usually she frustrates me because she wont calm down and freaks out until she falls asleep then wont let you put her down, so you end up holding her 1/2 the night!!! but then there are nights like last night where I completely woke up when she did and we just sat together she honestly sat with me at 3-5 am and watched tv and drank some milk then slowly layed down and fell asleep on me and was easy to lay in bed. I'm sorry but I loved that!! Just sitting there with my daughter that cant tell me what is wrong and snuggling!! It was wonderful.
So as of now I think I might be able to handle one more but she has not woken up yet so I'll let you know!!!Sorry such a long post ! feel free to post your comments on what a bad mother I am that my child throws temper tantrums and says no!! or to tell me your methods of dealing with it. or the waking up thing of the nursery thing feel free for advice!